I was asked this question on formspring, and thought it would the perfect thing to muse and blog about on this otherwise lazy Sunday afternoon.
Firstly, I am one of those people who genuinely appreciate time alone with themselves. I'm not anti-social, but I can't be around people constantly all the time. I have friends and family, who I love dearly and with whom I enjoy spending time, but I am perfectly content spending time alone and doing things that I enjoy. Reading, writing, drawing, cooking a little. This does not mean that I don't like spending time with others, this does not mean that I am weird, or a recluse. And I guess this is something you must know about me to understand me.
I am probably the least confrontational person you will ever meet, or read their blog. I used to be painfully shy, but through high school I came out of my shell, but I still don't have the ability to confront or argue with someone, or even show my true emotions. Other than with my immediate family, I have only ever argued with one person, once. He was my boyfriends, now ex, and he was drunk at the time so it doesn't really count. And I very rarely show my true emotions, or my true feelings. If I'm happy or course I'll show it, but if I'm sad, hurt, etc, I usually don't feel comfortable confiding in even the closest of friends. And that's just the way I am.
Third on my list, is that I'm not one of those people that can be categorised into either scientific-minded or creatively-minded. I am studying biochemistry at the moment, and it's something I'm very passionate about learning about. Excuse my geekiness, but it's true. But people seem to think that if you study a science, and have chosen science as a career path, that you can't be creative, or appreciate art. Now I don't consider myself particularly creative, but I do appreciate art. And I enjoy drawing, it calms me. Music as well, I adore practically any genre of music, including classical (however excluding drum and bass, grime, dance etc). I suppose this isn't so much a big part of my personality, but it's important to me nonetheless.
Penultimately, I'm a procrastinator. And I'm sure there are many of us out there. I'm utterly terrible at leaving things to the last minute. From handing in the essay, to getting ready to leave the flat, to paying the rent, everything in every aspect of my life is procrastinated. And it's ridiculous! That's why this year my new years resolution is to be more organised, subheading: don't procrastinate. And it's going well. But then again, it has only been 16 days...
And here we are at the last hurdle, and I'd like to point out that this is a lot more difficult than it seems.
Finally, I'm not as confident as I'd like to be. And I guess this ties in with the second point, but I feel it merits its own paragraph. You come across people that are so confident in themselves, of their opinions, of anything, and I wish I could be more like them. I struggle to, not have an opinion, but make it known to others. I sometimes hold back from making big changes in my life, such as studying abroad for a year, because I lack confidence - I should point out this isn't the only reason, but it does play its part. But again, this is something I'm working on, because I refuse to let my life be characterised by what I'm too scared to do. In just over a year, I'll be graduating and looking for a job, a career, a new life. And I simply can't let lack of confidence affect these big decisions, it wouldn't be right and I don't think I could forgive myself if I did.
Anyway, that's my lot. And it wasn't easy. This is probably the most honest I've been with myself for a good while, but it was interesting.
And I hope some of you will have a bash at answering it.
'Til next time. x